I am overwhelmed by the positive responses, love and support to my first blog post.
There truly is so much power and healing in sharing yourself with others. It is only by the Grace of God that I am in recovery.
You now can see strength and courage but what I have felt was shame and embarrassment. And what saved me is this thing called Grace.
What does the Bible say about SHAME 1Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
What the Bible says about GRACE 2Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
While religion was an important part of my childhood, as I hit my late teens it was not important to me. And my faith became quiet. As I grew older, I felt something was missing in my life. After I got divorced in 2011, I began seeking for what was missing.
I didn’t know at the time but what I was lacking was a relationship with God.
I went Church Shopping. I did a few Bible studies but didn’t click with the people in the group nor did I feel I fit into the Church. But I kept seeking. I found a Church home in 2014. I loved what they were teaching. It’s what I was looking for. They were teaching the Bible. They encouraged to join a group and study together. Which is what I did.
I was walking the path that God had planned for me. Or so I thought.
In 2015, smoke and mirrors covered the truth of the path I was on. I was convinced this was part of Gods plan. And then life happened and the man I was with changed in what seemed like a second. I ignored the warning signs and got caught up in his addiction. Trying to save him from himself became my job.
When I finally hit my bottom, I not only walked away, I ran.
The Grace and love that God has shown me from friends and family walking along side me during this time brings me to my knees.
I can never repay the countless people who knowing and unknowingly supported me. But what I can do, is share my story. I can celebrate my recovery. I can shine my light bright. So bright that I shine on someone else’s darkness.