I had a very awful week at work. I was moved to a new position. I’ve been with the company for 5 years and while I already knew the basics I didn’t know all of the steps to do it.
I found myself being put on a treadmill at the speed of 10 and I just had to jump on and do it. Big leaning curve and no time to fully understand it, just do it.
The first 3 weeks were ok, I kinda liked it even. But week 4 was awful. I worked a TON of hours and was getting me nowhere fast. I was exhausted and I made a bunch of mistakes because I missed a step that I either wasn’t told about or was but didn’t understand.
I knew early in the week that I was in trouble and the treadmill was going faster than I was.
Being a recovering codependent my first response was to try and figure it out myself. But I quickly raised my hard and asked for help. Help was offered but in the end, no real help happened.
I cried everyday last week. I went to the managers everyday last week crying that I just didn’t know what I am doing.
I don’t know if this change was a good idea or not. I need more training and time but neither of those things seem like they are happening.
I am frustrated with the job itself, the managers and myself. Several people before me, gave up and ended up walking out. I completely understand why they walked out, because if I could I would.
Praying that next week is better. I’m afraid that the managers are looking to replace me. I told them not to give up on me. Feeling terrible.