I can only credit what I’ve learned in my recovery program to how I’ve recovered from such an awful work week.
I asked one of the managers if I could talk to him. I first apologized for having such an off week. What you don’t know is that I have recently been diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder. (I’ll share more about that when I’m ready) I’ve been in some medication for over a month that was giving me insomnia. It was building more and more and I was sleeping less and less. So I said that the insomnia got the best of me and I was making mistakes and not knowing it because my brain was foggy from lack of sleep.
I then said, I think these things contributed to my department having such a difficult week because of this and this and here is how I think we can improve these things.
Finally I said, I’m struggling with ______ and do you have a better way of doing this than I have figured out.
I still have a lot of work ahead of me but I feel so good that I handled this in the way I did. I just needed a little bit of time and some sleep to get back on track.
Again I credit my program and the new skills I have learned that I was able to handle this in the way I did. I know the manager appreciated it and we have a really good working relationship. If I hadn’t hit my bottom in a codependent relationship, I wouldn’t have started my recovery and I would have continued to beat myself up and struggle in silence.
My journey to serenity continues…