Recurring themes…

I keep running into these words: Resilience and Living Authentically. 

Resilience is defind as the ability to return to the original form, position, etc., after being bent, compressed, or stretched; elasticity.

And Living Authentically is defined as acting in ways that are congruent with our values, preferences, and abilities being true to the core self in one’s daily life. 

Before working a recovery program I thought I was living both of those but now I have a completely different point of view. 

Working a recovery program, being resilient and living authenticity means that you are reflective. Understanding what is your part and what is not. 

Working a recovery program, being resilient and living authenticity means you are not judgemental. When being reflective you understand that people make mistakes and the greatest lessons are from the darkest nights and understand that others make mistakes too. And bounce back when you are hurt or disappointed. 

Working a recovery program, being resilient and living authenticity means you live in the present. You no longer dwell on the past or what if’s or if only’s. You are trusting God and enjoying one moment at a time.

Working a recovery program, being resilient and living authenticity means you have identified your character defects and are entirely ready to have God remove all our defects of character and humbly ask him to remove our shortcomings. 

Working a recovery program, being resilient and living authenticity means that you listen. You understand that there are times when someone just wants to be heard and knowing this you learn how to be a good listener. 

Working a recovery program, being resilient and living authenticity means you are consistent. Living the steps, having a sponsor keeps you on track and consistent. 

Working a recovery program, being resilient and living authenticity means others notice and ask you about how you life your life this way. Because by living this way, you give others hope. 

I am humble and grateful for my program. 

My journey to serenity continues….

At The End Of Me…

Life is different since I started living life with the 12 steps and working a program. The first 3 steps are admitting that I am powerless over my compulsive behaviors and my life is unmanageable, that I believe that a power greater than myself (Jesus Christ) can restore me to sanity and I have made the decision to turn my life and my will over to the care of God. 
At the end of me…..I found You there. 


Clearly my plan and way of coping with life wasn’t working and I was spinning further and further into chaos and further and further away from God.

And then I hit my bottom….at the end of me….I found You there. 

God has sent the most amazing faith filled women to join me on the journey. For me to witness their walk with God and watch them walk the walk and talk the talk. They are amazing role models. 

At the end of me…..I found You there. 

We are not made to walk a recovery journey alone. Friendships born from recovery, sponsor and accountability partners. We walk together. There is safety in safe numbers. 

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

And one of my favorite passages. 

Proverbs 27:17 As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.

My journey to serenity continues and I am grateful for at the end of me…..I found You there.