My life is telling a story. The story is based on every decision I’ve made. Good decisions and bad ones too.
My story tells the story about a girl who learned to cope with life by being codependent. This served her well for a while until it didn’t. As she lost herself trying to fix someone else and trying to fix the person before him and the one before him too.
She was about to give up when she found her life to be wreck. Like a 100 car train wreck. Parts smashed and broken beyond repair. Off the track as far as the eye can see in all directions. Everything is just a mess.
But then she made a different decision. She found a Christian based recovery group and she was reminded that God is in control and she didn’t have to try to control everything around her.
Because of wanting and being willing to understand and let go, she no longer had to feel responsible for so many things that were out of her control in the first place. And she started to heal the parts of her heart that had hurt for so long that those parts were numb to the pain.
She made new decisions everyday. Everyday committing to let God guide her footsteps.
Today her life is telling a different story. This girl is seeking and listening and finding her way to the living the life my soul intended.
I have no idea why but this quote from Henry David Thoreau came to mind tonight. But it did so have to go with it. ‘Most men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with the song still in them”?
There is no more quiet desperation for me and I am singing loud and proud of this amazing story of grace and love that God is giving to me.
Me…..this girl…..derailed and broken beyond repair…..or so I thought. Praise God for his love and kindness that is waiting for all of us.
Continue on this journey with me, the best is yet to be.
This girls journey to serenity continues.
I took the picture used in this post while writing at my favorite local coffee shop.