I took this picture outside my office window after a late afternoon storm. I love how the light changes from one area to another. Some darker than others and some with such bright light as sun peeks out from behind the clouds.
Rainbows represent God’s promise. His promise to be with us when we are afraid during a storm and that storms end.
I seem to have been overcome by worry here lately. Which reminded me that I struggle with codependency and that codependency is about control.
- Control a situation.
- Control what others know and think about a situation.
- Control the outcome of a situation.
- Control my pain.
- Control others pain.
- Control being out of control.
- Control of owning all of situation, when it’s not all mine.
- Control wanting to make amends when I’m I don’t even know what I’m sorry for doing or not doing.
It wasn’t until yesterday when a friend was facing a health crisis, that I said things to her that I needed to hear for myself.
I sent to her, remember:
- God is in control.
- God goes before and with you.
- God knows the outcome.
- You are so loved.
- Worry does not change outcome.
Isaiah 41:10 Don’t be afraid, for I am with you! Don’t be frightened, for I am your God. I strengthen you – yes, I help you – yes I uphold you with my saving right hand.
So here I am at 2 am, ready to lift this situation I have found myself in with someone I love very much. God is in control, God is making a way, Thy will not my will, I just need to breathe and remember that I am loved even with this current struggle. And worry does not change outcome…..if I’m worried about or not, what’s going to happen is going to happen without my intervention.
I’ll have to look up the verse but someplace in the Bible it says….in my weakness, He is strong.
After all, am I really that powerful…..no no I’m not but He is.
My journey continues…