There have been times when I have felt broken. Defeated. Damaged. Crushed. Hurt. Sadness over the loss of hopes, dreams and what could have been.
What I have learned during those times is that those feelings do not last forever and there are lessons to be learned. It is so very hard to remember these truths when you are middle of those feelings.
Finding the beauty in brokenness.
Last year highlighted my codependency nature, it was been a part of who I am as long as I can remember. Codependency is about control. Controlling the things around me. Giving up control, surrendering to God’s will has changed my life the last few months.
I could be resentful and angry about last year….I could be but I choose not to be. I choose to find the beauty in brokenness. Knowing that I am stronger today than yesterday and stronger for having been in at awful place.
There is a song by Jon Guerra Stained Glass. he sings in part….
show me what you see
when you look at me
show me what is real
more than what i feel
we have stains, it’s true
but when your light shines through
we all look like stained glass windows to you
God sees me, the person that he wants me to be, stained, broken. hurt and being put back together only because of His grace and love.
Broken is beautiful because when the pieces are back together a new better version of me is created.
My journey to serenity continues….