There’s layers of hurts, habits and hang-ups to work out and once you heal and pull away one layer there is something new revealed.
But I think this is an incomplete picture of what my (and I’m sure many others) recovery looks like.
Yesterday I went to Sunflower Farm with a group of recovery friends. Sunflowers at sunset. It was delightful. I’ve been there several times but no one else had and to watch them enjoy the farm, filled my heart.
I was looking at my pictures and found a different and I think a better way to describe my recovery other than an onion.
Recovery is like a sunflower.
Have you ever seen a sunflower bloom? Well, I took these pics and will explain my recovery journey.
Starting off, I felt closed in. Lonely and not focusing on anything else but my own pain.
I started opening up. Trusting the people in recovery with my hurts. Being willing to be open. To heal what hurt and change my behaviors.
And as I worked the 12 Steps and the 8 Principles of Celebrate Recovery to the best of my ability, I opened up more and more. Revealing who I am. My true self.
Seeing for myself, who I was becoming. Understanding the gifts that God gave me and putting these gifts into practice.
Seeing those around me, for who they are, who they are becoming and watching with delight, watching them bloom.
But here’s the thing about recovery. Well mine anyway. I’m not done yet. i don’t think I will ever be done. I may have healed what initially got me into recovery, blooming, using my gifts and I’m walking along side others but life happens.
I will get stung. I will get hurt. But I also know that first I have healed before and second, I have a recovery community, a forever family to stand with me. I am never alone. And I am loved.
And look what a gorgeous pattern in the center of sunflower. God is amazing. Just like he knows every hair on my head, He made these beautiful flowers with nothing overlooked. No detail too small.
I have found freedom from my past hurts and decisions. And I will continue to work my program to the best of my ability so that I can continue to bloom.
My journey continues…